Tick Tock

It's time to stop fearing adulthood

and the heavy burdens that come with it.

Time to accept that the person you relied on your whole life 

will be taken away from you one day

And there's nothing you can do to stop it.

The best thing to do now is to not let any more precious time 

and opportunities slip away

Or it will all be too late.

Let go of all fears

and spread out your wings.

You can't stop yourself from growing up

However hard you fight it.

Now is the time to take the reins.

Never disappoint those who rely on you

This will give you the strength and courage you need

To go on and to continue living. 

It's not too late now.

It may be, tomorrow. 

Save the Little Girl

i wish i could...

sing 

play the guitar 

write poems

paint

bake cookies

make my own dress

write a novel

swim

surf

take great pictures

travel the world

and the list goes on and on...

then i stop and think.

too much wishing makes my heart grow weary....

if i could do all those things...

i'd lose that little girl in me who wishes upon the night sky 

with that hopeful smile on her face.

i miss that little girl who only sees the good in people,

who believes in fairies and Santa Claus,

who writes love letters to her mother 

and gives her sweet, butterfly kisses each morning 

and before going to bed each night.

it became clear to me...

i need to look for that little girl whose heart is pure,

who loves unconditionally,

who finds happiness in her mother's hugs 

and her Barbie dolls.

i wish to find that girl still alive and smiling

 i vow to never let her go again

to keep her in my heart as long as i live...

when that time comes, then i'd stop wishing

and start accepting the things i cannot change,

begin appreciating the joy of living

even in the simplest ways

life is the most precious gift

like that little girl,

i just wanna be happy eating my ice cream.

My baby Samantha at 1 yr - soooo cute

The One Who Made Me Believe

     Not so long ago, in the four corners of our office, I saw this guy with long curly hair and sleepy eyes -- and a goatee. He smiles all the time and so I thought to myself, "Is he nuts? No. He's probably just a really nice guy." Well, I thought he's cute. And really, really nice... hhmm...

     Then, a few months later, we became friends. Our friendship started over a few bottles of beer with his college friends at Mogwai, a historic place in Cubao Expo where you get to see all the cool people: artists, musicians, poets, mountaineers, activists, and the wannabes. We're one of the lucky ones who have spent some crazy and loud nights in that place before it was forced to shut down. Sadly.
   
     Our friendship blossomed into something else that we didn't know what to call at first. We weren't sure what we were doing. All we knew was that we want to be with each other every day. We're happy together.
   
     Until that time came, when we realized that we're inlove. Everything started to change. We loved and argued. We laughed and cried. We broke up and reconciled many times. But in the end, we promised to never be apart.
   
     That promise to keep our love strong and positive is the inspiration for this new blog.

                     New year.
                    
                     New perspective.
                    
                     New blog. 

     This nice guy, who looks like a surfer dude by the way,  knew what I needed when he designed my blog. He showed me the things that make my life meaningful --- my daughter, our love and friendship, even my favorite accessories. Unlike my first blog, this one has colors in it, telling me that my life is not dull and there is hope for a brighter, colorful future.

     I'm so lucky to have met this guy and to have him in my life until now.

                       He made me believe. 

                      He made me choose to love.    

P.S.
Kathy, this is not a blog about my love life, solely. Don't worry. I have other things going on in my life right now. I'm a busy bee :) Carlo helped me understand that it's about time to look at things in a positive light. And this blog is his gift to me. And this is now my instrument and my medium to show the others that It Is Possible If We Believe It.